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Lovebites & razorlines

NSFW - gore, images with bloody or sexual themes. Also gayness.
Trigger warning for depression and self-harm.

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I reblog stuff I like; movies & series & books & music & comics & anime & manga, creepy and cute and gorey stuff, cosplay, things related to depression and anxiety, pretty people, fashion, styles, art, photography, gothic themes, cats, funny things and guro/eroguro.

Occasionally I post some of my own works, drawings or photography. I also link almost all of my instagram pictures in my tumblr. In instagram I go by the nick crowmoor, so if you're interested in my everyday life - or our cats - you're welcome to check it out too~  (─‿‿─)
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Tagged by :iconmiathebadger:

The rules:
You must post these rules.
Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.

(You have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
Go to their pages and tell them you tagged them.
No tag backs.) Not doing tags, everyone wearing dirty white socks should do this.

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1. I'm not wearing those dirty white socks :c dark grey woolen socks are my choice at the moment.
2. I have gathered multiple ribbons, fabrics, buttons, cardboard tubes, chains and whatnot, in case I need them for my abjd or my cosplays. And I feel like I'm developing some kind of disorder or obsession when it comes to collecting this weird stuff. (I'm probably gonna use none of it, ever.)
3. I really really want to cosplay, but I wish the costumes made themselves without me having to bother.
4. I miss roleplaying! I probably can't play at forums anymore, too much chat-rpgs. I also miss those rp-friends(and characters!) I don't get to play with anymore ;_;
5. There's a big mess inside my head right now. But I'll save that for my next therapy session.
6. My medication has gone so wrong... and it appears to have the weirdest effects D: I can't eat stuff like rye bread normally. My throat itches like cuhraezy. I had to drink a litre of water in order to get two slices of bread down my throat.
7. I want to drop out and start studying something else. This carpenter stuff is not for me. It terrifies me. I think I need to study languages... or something. My mom and gf say I should be a goldsmith. Who knows.
8. Screw what anyone says about money not making people happy, I wants it.
9. Oh, I hate religions so much. Lately everything around me just reminds me about it. With the elections coming and everything. And Pasila. And like that one campaing about how gay youngsters can turn het again. Just like murderers can have another chance and be cured of evil.
10. Still addicted to diet coke.
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Very bored. So I thought I'd tag myself yet again. There's some babbling about Desucon @ my :iconmaucosplay: but there'll be no photos, since I have none. However, I bought new copics from the con and those little love-filled sticks are always good inspiration. But, my scanner is a problem. I should try to make it work again, but I really don't know what I should do.
Anyway.

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ABOUT YOU

What is your weirdest habit or bad habit, if you have one?
- Nowadays I'd say my newly found temper is a bad habit. I tend to get really angry really easily and it bothers me since I'm not normally like that. Other than that my weird habits include washing my hands ferociously, drawing random scenes of violence and procrastinating stuff.

Are you happy with the age you are? Or do you wish to be older or younger?
- I'll be 22 tomorrow and I have a crisis ;_;~ I'd like to be 16. 18 tops.

What is one thing you always wanted to be when little? Has it changed now?
- If I remember correctly, it was always majorly disturbing to me as a child if grown ups asked what I'd like to be. I've always liked animals and drawing so I probably answered with a vet or an artist. I still like both but as occupations they're not for me after all.

What kind of person do you think you are? ( You can use your friends opinions about you if you wish )
- Hmm... what people say about me is that... they don't dare to argue or fuck with me. Some say I'm funny. Probably all of them think I'm egoistic and cocky. And when I try to act cute, they tell me I'm scary, and if I try to appear innocent, they usually laugh. A lot. I'm often accused of mindfuck too. I probably agree with all those opinions?

How is your mood mostly?
- Calm, confident, I laugh all the freaking time but my mood swings easily and it doesn't require much to get me sulking/angry and irritated. But yeah, mostly I'm just... tripping.

Do you like how you look?
- Nuu...

What do you enjoy doing mostly?
- Fapp- no wait what. Drawing, reading, sewing, messing and tripping around with friends/my gf. Watching movies!

Are you experienced in love or inexperienced?
- Um... probably inexperienced, since my current girlfriend is the only person I've ever loved?

How many relationships have you had?
- Probably... like... two or three? Depending on what counts.

Do you feel you are lucky in love or unlucky?
- Well... I AM in love so doesn't that make me lucky?

What is it mostly you like about a guy/girl? Is there anything you secretly like as well?
- About my girl I like most about her personality, and that she lets me to be protective over her. And I like that she laughs at my crappy humour :D we like a lot of same stuff but other than that we're like the different sides of a coin, it's cool.
- Secretly... well it is a bit shallow to like her glasses, or the fact that she's younger than me. And then some stuff that not everyone needs to know.

What attracts you to a guy/girl?
- Good looks, if I don't know 'em?

What do you think of love itself?
- It varies so much depending on a person... for me it's a source of energy, but I really can't explain myself.

If you are single, why do you feel that is? If you are taken, how good is your relationship?
- Taken & happy with it.

YOUR LIFE

Do you have a job or still searching?
- Part time job, at least until school starts after summer.

How is your life at the moment?
- Could be worse, could be better? I don't know, I'm mentally unstable right now and it makes things look way worse than they really are. It's bad, I know I should enjoy my situation like there's no tomorrow. But I'm just human ;_;

Do you feel you want to change your life? Or are you happy with how your life is now?
- Like I said...

Is your life different now to how it used to be?
- My mental state is a bitch, otherwise things are better. Like, I'm going to school again, I have a job and there's no more long-distance realtionship between me and my girl. I wish I could enjoy all that.

Do you feel overtime, you, yourself as a person has changed during your life?
- Oh god, a lot. If I could, I'd punch my younger self. I mean... pathetic. How could I not hate myself back then??

What kind of life do you see for you in future?
- A nice apartment with my girl, some animal friends, hopefully good jobs for both and a stable financial situation would be well enough.


RANDOM THINGS

What swear word do you say mostly?
- How do you translate "voi jumalauta!" accurately....

Have you ever made up a funny word? If so what is it?
- I think "toukero" is a cute word. It's like caterpillar but... cuter. I call my girl that when she crawls around the bed inside the blanket, so that only her face can be seen >3<

What is the most random song you have on your media player / ipod / etc?
- I used to have this Finnish parody of Rihanna's Umbrella! But I have... um... Rickroll! You never know when you're gonna need it. And Petri Nygård's "Hevari" is... random indeed. Then some Repo! songs. OH OH AND Laika - Bad Times! It's pure random win!

If you had to choose between a Knife / A Gun / A whip, which would you choose and why?
- If there's a gun available, the other two seem to be pretty useless, won't they?

Would you change yourself for someone, just so they'd like you more?
- I've changed my personality so that I could like myself, there's no way anyone's gonna erase all that effort.

Pick one. Batman / Spiderman / Superman?
- Spiderman! /

NOW GO AND TAG PEOPLE >:U
- :V every faggot, do eeet.
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My girl~

5 min read
Boyfriend/Girlfriend Meme
:iconwiidi: :meow::heart:
1. Who eats more?
I believe she does, but we both live with the tiniest amount of food : D we're always like "it's been three days since I last ate properly...", but when we eat together like some super-delicious pasta I made, I dump her more food coz I'm like blergh after two bites.

2. Who said "I love you" first?
She did, I didn't even give it a proper thought before that, since I didn't believe I'd fall in love so fast since I lacked that kind of feelings back then. But when she said, I noticed I could respond the same way without lying.

3. Who is the morning person?
Neither of us, but she wakes up faster. I want to stay in bed for hours even after I'm awake and she's always kicking me out of the bed when she gets bored and wants to eat breakfast and I'm like "two more hours~ =3="

4. Who sings better?
Everyone sings better than me xD I can only sing Paranoid and my voice is pitiful even then.

5. Who's older?
I am >: D she's my loli ♥

6. Who's smarter?
She is :D she's going to graduate high school like woah. But I'm street smart! >: D (in my dreams)

7. Whose temper is worse?
Mine. I try to stay calm, mostly because I can't handle myself when I'm angry. I almost broke a mirror (again) couple of days ago, and I smashed my phone to the floor two times. Lucky me it still works. And when I'm drunk, I want to beat the living hell out of everyone who steps closer than six feet from my girl.

8. Who does the laundry?
We don't live together, but it will probably be me :nod: because I can't even sleep if there's crap all over the place.

9. Who does the dishes?.
I do, and she helps when I pout and act butthurt enough.

10. Who sleeps on what side of the bed?
She always sleeps on the side against the wall, no matter whose bed it is. I sleep on the other side, and by the morning, nearly on the floor.

11. Whose feet are bigger?
She claims that hers are but since we wear same shoes, I dun believe it. Her hands are smaller too!

12. Whose hair is longer?
Mine, now that my butch-hair is growing longer and developing a pretty fine mullet. Her hair is more bob.

13. Who's better with the computer?
Probably she? All my stuff just automagically start to work and I'm like "8D I dunnooooo~"

14. Do you have pets?
Together? Yes, a hamster Karski, mouse Trap and my silly cat Timon is definitely partly hers. Like 1/4 or something. She can have the smelly butt.

15. Who pays the bills?
Since we don't live together there's no mutual bills, but I sure buy her a lot of stuff.

16. Who cooks dinner?
She's better at it but at least she claims to like my pasta so I guess we both cook. And I always try to help with what I can. Like turning on the oven 0/

17. Who drives when you are together?
Me me me /

18. Who pays when you go out to dinner?
We share when she has the money, or I lend her some. In cafeterias and such I pay for her gladly tho, because I'm that much of a gentleman ;>

19. Who's the most stubborn?
I am, definitely, and proud of it ♥

20. Who is the first one to admit when they're wrong?
For me there's never nothing to admit! 8>

21. Whose family do you see more?
Mine, she usually travels here.

22. Who named your pet?
We both named the mouse, she (and crosiriann) named the hamster and I named the cat!

23. Who kissed who first?
She kissed me, I failed so fucking hard it still hurts and thought that she is straight >___> yes, I'm such a winner.

24. Who asked who out?
No-one really, we started straight out with that kissing.

25. What did you do on your first date?
When we like... officially went out to do something? ...ate sushi, probably?

26. Who's more sensitive?
She is, there's these times I go batshit and bawwwww all around but in general she is definitely more sensitive. I'm so MANL- *shot*

27. Who's taller?
:| le fuck you.

28. Who has more friends?
She probably knows more people but she claims to be lonely at times so I guess I have more friends.

29. Who has more siblings?
She has two whole and two halfs. So, like, three..? 8D I have a lil' bro.

30. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
That'd be me, even tho there's increasingly more occasions when we both can be seen without pants. ....wearing skirts >: D Almost got you excited, huh, huh?
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Attention plz?

2 min read
All the photography and cosplay are taking over my gallery, meant for my drawings. SO, in order to balance things, I will be moving ALL my photography and cosplay to a new account: :iconmaucosplay:

I will leave all my drawings, memes (except for the cosplay-meme of course) and naturally ID-photos here! So if you're not interested in my cosplay and photography, then you don't need to take any action.
However, if you like my cosplay and such, I recommend you watch me there too :3 I'm in the middle of slow and painfull transferring operation so if you watch me now, you'll make it in time as I spam all your inboxes so hard you'll still be clicking the "delete"-button on the next decade.

I will transfer all the photos from here to :iconmaucosplay: (with few exceptions that I will remove permanently, mainly old cosplay), but there will also be SPECIAL MATERIAL NEVER SEEN BEFORE and some IMPROVED and BIGGER versions of cosplay-photos already seen here! /

Can you fucking believe that!

Enjoy the ride.
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